Faith and fear cannot exist in the same heart and mind at the same time.  Why is fear so overwhelming?  How does it overtake faith when faith is the good stuff?  I have recently been bombarded with reminders of faith.  Every day I've been wearing a little pin from Mary Kay that contains a mustard seed as a reminder to keep the faith.  Mine seems to be so much smaller than that tiny mustard seed.  I'm constantly working to overcome the fear I feel when I consider that in just three short months my son will deploy.  I know that faith is the only thing that will get me through that time. 

People say, "He'll be okay.  Don't worry."  I'm glad they are so sure of that.  Since when did they take on the roll of God?   Since when are they all knowing?  The fact is, he may not be okay.  The morning he left for basic training, when I woke him up with a blessing which I could barely say, even he said, "I'll be okay."  He doesn't know that either.  What is okay, anyway?  I guess it could be anything.  I am praying constantly.  I hope you will pray for me to be able to let go and let God take care of Matt just like He's done for the last 21 years.